Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Dear Izzy

It's almost your birthday. You are going to be 19 years old. I am sure you already knew that though. I have never went a day without thinking of you. Your birthday is no exception. I always have taken it off. I feel like it's a special day and yet a hard day. I really don't like to add the stress of work. It's so amazing that for this birthday your more than just an image I had in my head. You are more than a memory of baby that never grew up.
I have had the pleasure of learning some things about you. We have a lot in common and also have our differences. I think we look quite a bit alike. It's weird looking at a picture and seeing how beautiful you are. Does that make me conceded? lol I have really enjoyed seeing your pictures and learning more about your life. It was always so hard not to know that you were safe and loved. From what I can tell you are a very responsible girl. You graduated from high school and work. You have opened up your heart and life to me and my children. I hope someday we all can meet. That is when you are ready.
As I was saying, your birthday is coming up. I can't believe that I can actually celebrate it with you. Even if that's just an electronic message. It wasn't easy making the decision to contact you. It's not all about me. I hope it's been a good thing for you. I never stopped loving you. You beautiful. Your sweet. I am proud to have you as a daughter. Even if it's not as the same as raising you. I have never once thought been sad that you were born. I was sad that you didn't were not in my life. I don't expect you to share the same feelings. You can be happy in who you are. Love always,


Kelsey Stewart, Author said...

What beautiful sentiments. Thank you for sharing these thoughts. And I too have always taken the day off. The birthday is a very special day.

Sally Bacchetta said...

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Alex said...

I always think about my bio parents on my birthday and wonder if they're thinking of me. I can't imagine how they must feel, but hope they feel comfort and peace along with any sadness or loss.

Happy Birthday Izzy!!

Campbell said...

This is a lovely letter and I tried to read it as if it were written to me.

I especially like this, "I don't expect you to share the same feelings. You can be happy in who you are."