I am kind of shifting moods again. I am not overly depressed over Izzy. But she still isn't far from my every day thoughts. It's weird how things work like that. I don't know what brings on the depression or what changes my mood.
I still wish I could trust my husband when it comes to talking about Izzy and adoption. We are better, but no where near perfect. He has stayed clean of his addiction and we both are trying to keep our cool. I have picked up the book "The love Dare" and am taking the challenge. I can't really do it for 40 days in a row, because I work 24 hour shifts so I am breaking it down to fit my lifestyle. It was part of our homework from our marriage counselor who has gone missing on some mission. I really don't mean missing as a missing person report, but he has other stuff to do than just help us. I really like the guy, but he did say one thing that I just don't agree with. He said if I was happier with my husband then I wouldn't be so focused on the child. I don't really agree with that, but I do admit that if I am getting good vibes from my husband I am going to be less likely to fall into a depression overall.