I haven't worked in my scrap book in ages. I really need to work on it some more and finish it. Maybe, I worked best through the tears. I just can't get into the right mood for it. Maybe, it's because I am afraid of finishing it and then giving it away to Izzy. It was always my goal to give it to her but there was also a possibility that I would never get that chance. So, maybe, I put so much into it that it scares me to give it away. Maybe, my pain was so deep that I am even afraid of sharing it with her. That makes me feel silly, because it's not like I made a depressing book. It's full of art. It's full of family pictures. It's full of my creativity.
It's no where near done. I have more ideas and things that I want to include in it. It's hard to explain. I have been protecting this book for years now. I have said that in the event of a fire, I will get the book. It's not hidden away in a closet. It's in a bin in the living room. It's can't not be replaced.
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Consider this - nothing that shares our lives or feelings are ever finished - until our lives are finished...
You can always start a second and third and fourth...
Consider this - nothing that shares our lives or feelings are ever finished - until our lives are finished...
You can always start a second and third and fourth...
Maybe it's because the book is full of your love, it's become a part of your soul ~ and you are scared to fully give that to Izzy?
Early in my reunion, hell ~ even now to be honest, it scares me to let Christopher know how much I love him. I fear that it will scare him away. My fears are less now than they were in the beginning ~ it's been almost two years and I haven't scared him away yet!
I think this is a wonderful idea. What a gift it will be for Izzy one day. You should scan the pages and make prints of them, keep a copy for yourself.
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