Monday, August 29, 2011

A man and his Mother.. An adopted son's search

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I took this book and my dog with me for a walk on the bike path. It was really a beautiful day. It wasn't too hot but plenty comfortable enough to be outside walking and looking and listening to the sounds of the river.

My dog and I haven't been the most active this summer. I am hoping that we can get back to my YMCA days now that school is in and I am working more and won't feel like I can't afford the darn gas. :) Well, anyways, we would walk for a while and then sit and I would read and she would mostly watch the people with their dogs cause she always has my back. I read a good part of it there. Sometimes, I sat on a bench and other times I sat on the ground so my dog could lay in my lap.

I wanted to take a few parts from this book and let you read it. First, though, Tim Green is a NFL football player and a writer. He was adopted at birth and had horrible nightmares. He had great parents but always felt like he couldn't achieve enough. I don't think it had anything to do with how his parents treated him. Tim didn't have the desire to know his birthmom until a mother of a girlfriend broke down and told him why she was so fond of him. She had lost a son to adoption and always wondered about it and tried tried to find him without any luck.

Tim was reading Charlotte's Web and sobbed over the ending.

He wrote, "You don't understand," I sobbed, cowering alone under the covers and unable to stop my crying. "you... don't...understand."
In all honestly, I didn't understand myself. Being sad is one thing, but hysterics are quite another. But the thing that bothered me about
Charlotte's death more than anything were the little babies she left behind.

It was such a wonderful day to walk and relax and escape spending time with my husband. He isn't working and I like my time alone and don't get it too much anymore. It feels like an escape from FB and blogging but I kind of thought it's a little weird that I choose adoption related books to escape with.

I guess it's just cause so much of my life has been consumed by adoption and negativity that I feel the most at home when I read real life stories about adoption coming from birthparents or an adoptee. It reenforces that birthmom's are with the thought process and the emotional stress of getting into an relationship with. It tells me that their are second chances in life and happy endings for reunions with birthparents and adoptees.

One very interesting part of this book is that there is a point when he is telling a certain somebody about his achievements in life that he finally realizes that he has had a good life and is a success story. I won't tell you what it took or who it took for him to come to this realization about himself.