Thursday, February 18, 2010

I have been pretty depressed and haven't been able to shake it. But I do think I am starting to come back up, but only if I don't think about what is getting me down. I know avoiding the hurt is only going to prolong it, but it's my way of dealing right now.
I have been off all week from my job and probably won't go back till a week from today. One thing that is good about my depression is that while I may cry, I don't lie down and cry. I pace the floors and try to find things to do. Last summer, I ripped out all the carpets, because I seen that we have hardwood underneath. This week, I have been slowly cleaning things that need to be done. I am not myself, but then again, I don't really know what myself is anymore.

7 comments:

Wendy said...

I'm so sorry you're feeling depressed...do you have a friend or someone that you could talk to about it? I hope things get better...

birthmothertalks said...

Yes I do. I have another birthmom that I talk to. I would be much worse if it wasn't for her friendship and I have a really good that I talk to and even though she can't understand she listens. Also, my husband has been pretty supportive of me even though I drive him crazy.

Wendy said...

I'm glad you know someone else you can talk to and that your husband has been supportive.

Mama Bear said...

hope it gets better, but your right I think its very positive that you are working on things while feeling this way, your body is still moving and hopefully you will get to some point of feeling better really soon!

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