Just wanted to do a quick update that my son moved yesterday morning to go stay with his friend and his Mother. I feel terribly sad. As much as I try to hide my emotions it didn't work and I cried in front of my son. I miss him already. I know the very thing that bugged me about him is going to make me miss him more. I had bought an Easter ham and didn't cook it until Sunday of this week. It was planned, in my mind, meaning i didn't tell anyone that I would make my ham potatoe casseole dish that he likes. I learned if I cooked him favorite meals he would be more likely to eat at home. Tonight, there wasn't any hoping or wondering if Alex was eating at home. There was just an empty seat at the table.

I just recently started a Tuesday night family night since Stephen is close to graduating from counseling. I plan on rotating it between game night and movie night. Today, the three of us a played a game. I wonder why I never did anything like this when Alex was home. He was actually here two weeks ago but was gone for the night.

My son was crying when he left and said he was sorry it had to happen this way. I hope that he can use that feeling to motivate himself to start doing something with himself.

I need to try to get back to myself. I am not doing well.