Thursday, May 13, 2010

one year

When I woke up yesterday, I didn't look at the date. Yesterday, marked the year anniversary since my husband had his seizure and ended up in the hospital. It's been a year since he last taken a drink. It hasn't been easy. The changes and scared that he would drink again. His drink of choice was vodka so even water in a cup sometimes did scare me. He says that he has zero interest in drinking. If you been following this blog for a long time then you might remember some of our very bad times where he was an ass. I won't say that we never have bad times anymore. We are not perfect, but it's 100% better. I won't go on and on about the emotional abuse that was thrown at me and I will admit that I threw it back. I remember feeling it was me or him. I thought I had to fight for myself and my son's survival in this world. Not as in he would have harmed us. But more so, the abuse from words and actions. I have forgiveness to work on still. But I am happy to say that our marriage is good. I am crazy in love with him. So, I know we can make it. If we can make it through my dark days of my sadness over adoption and a drinking power, nothing can touch us. No one can pull us apart.
Yesterday, after working out at the Y. I picked up a few flowers and put them in a vase and got a birthday card that told him how much a difference this year has been. I bought the groceries and cooked the dinner. I don't cook much so that was a treat to him. The only thing I didn't do is clean up the kitchen. He said, you and your son a lot a like.You both make such big messes when you cook. haha. Like I said, I am not perfect.
If you get anything from this post about my husband's drinking problem. He is 50 years old and has drank since he was young. He says he was probably addicted at about 30 but didn't admit it at that point. If he can beat a drinking problem. Then, anyone can. But it's not easy and he doesn't really have any answers to why the desire went away. I am really not going to worry about the why. I am just going to enjoy my husband and the happiness he brings me.

4 comments:

Alex said...

Big Congrats to your husband. Thats a huge deal!!

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