Friday, October 23, 2009

I am a caregiver for the elderly. I do in home care and the business isn't good right now, but that's not the point. In my job, you don't always get to see other caregivers unless you get lucky enough to work for a client that has long days or 24 hour care.
When I was working the live in shift I worked with a couple other nice ladies. Since, the clients have taken a turn for the worse, we are all thrown out into new homes hoping to get enough hours.
When I was going through one of my darkest periods of my life, my coworker Pam suggested counseling at a local church. I never really got to tell her how things have turned around and how I feel that she played an important role in our life.
Yesterday, Pam was the co worker shift was ending and mine was beginning. It turns out this is her last shift and she is moving out of the state to be near one of her children. I was given the chance to tell her how her suggestion made a big difference in our life. How things have really turned around and how I go to church on a regular basis now. She was thrilled and as always talked about her faith in God. It was so nice to be able to say Thank you. I am not on the same page when it comes to faith in God. But I am in a much better place of mind then I used to be.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I have read your story from the beginning and one important thing I want to say to you is to forgive yourself. You were only 15 years old with an older "man" who should not have been with you. You had no supervision. Your parents have separated, your sister has a new baby, your Mom has a new boyfriend and you are made to give away your sweet baby girl. The father of the baby moves away and may not have even known you were pregnant. You were a child alone to face this difficult adult situation. Forgive yourself... you do not deserve to live in this pain. You had no guidance at your young tender age. Things were a mess for you even before you got pregnant. Hold onto the fact that at 21 yrs of age you can possibly hold Izzy in your arms. Live for that moment. As for your Mom...she doesnt deserve your love and attention right now. Where was she when you so needed a mother's love? You hold on tight...your day is coming.