My birthday

The top photo is from Mother's day three years ago.

The bottom photo is from my most recent birthday. Alex came into town for my birthday and treated me to dinner. Alex, Stephen and myself rode bikes to the pizza joint. We had an awesome time riding and just enjoying each other's company. Alex paid for dinner and gave me a card with a little cash in it. Plus he gave me some chocolate. He seems like he is doing well with his job.

It's slightly been over a year since we made him move out. It was a tough decision but it was probably for the best. He mentioned hoping to get his own place soon. I am so happy he is doing well. I am thinking of a short vacation stay in his town.. maybe get a hotel room and stay a night or two.. It's such a cute town. I would love to explore it more.

New goal

Before the end of this year I would love to see my followers reach 200 Followers.. It's not always going to be adoption related but I sort of miss blogging so maybe it will get switched up from time to time. Will ya help get me up there if your reading but don't follow? Let's see if I can live on the wild side and see what will happen first me hit 100 lbs lost or me hit 200 followers on my blog!! Let's go!!

Color run 2013

For the fun of it I wanted to share pictures again from last years run!! Go here.

and to see some more from last here go here.

Color run 2014

I signed up for the Color run again. I had such a great time last year that I wanted to do it again and I wanted to see my son get colored. I ran it and my son walked it. He didn't really want to do it but I bribed him.

Pictures before the run started.

During the run!!

A few shots from after the run.

Last one.

It was a blast! My husband said I ran much better than last year. I felt like this year the paint didn't stick to my clothes as well as last year. I chose to buy and wear the tank cause it mentions turtles and I have a pet turtle. Lol.

After we got cleaned up my son and I went to Olive garden and ate like pigs. They had an awesome deal for 2 for 25.00!!

I hope someday to do a longer run! I don't have any specific runs in mind but I think I would love the challenge of a 10k or half of a marathon. A little over a week ago, I went running on Sunday and ended up crashing a half marathon cause they were running on the bike path that I do. It felt weird cause everyone was aplauding everyone. I wanted to follow the runners and cross the finish line but didn't feel that would be right and I didn't have time to keep running.

Hope you enjoyed my pictures. I had quite a few dinners out over my birthday week.. next time I get a few minutes to spare I will post about my birthday dinner with Alex and Stephen.

Update

I can't believe I have almost lost all interest in blogging. It's weird. Well, how about a do a quick update on everyone.

I am now down 93lbs!! I am close to goal weight that puts me in the top range of a healthy weight. I am still working for the same two clients and lately one of them is driving me crazy! I am still babysitting for this church on Sunday's and somedays I am cool with it and other days I feel like quitting.. I feel like quitting on the days where I don't have any children. However, I heard a new baby was born yesterday so hoping for the days of not having any child go down.

I have to drive my husband to work and then it's two more hours before I have to be at church. I am there an hour and half to two hours and if I have any errands to do it seems like by the time I get home it's time to get my husband.. then he drops me off at home.. all this is done on not getting quite enough sleep between Saturday night and Sunday morning.. The funny thing is if I quit the church job and stayed home and had him drive himself I wonder if I would be equally frustrated cause now I would be stuck.

Alex got promoted at his job at McDonald's to manager. He is suppose to come tomorrow and we go to dinner for my birthday.. That would mean he would treat, right? LOL It was his suggestion so more reason to think it's his dime.. We shall see.

Stephen went to D.C and had a great time. He is finishing up 8th grade soon. I can't believe he is onto high school after this summer. We don't have anything lined up for summer but hope to have some camps set up for him soon.. It's his last year he can do the camp he sleeps over with.

Izzy has announced that her and her fiance are getting married at the end of this summer.. They are just having a small ceremony where they live and then coming to our home town for a reception.

My husband is working two jobs and for the most part they are going well. This month we came up on five years since he quit drinking.

My relationship with my Mother has improved! It's not pefect but it's an huge improvement. I think there has been a little on each of our parts at making an effort to see each other. I think our trip to TN in October was a starting point cause I had to spend a lot of time with her. I no longer feel akward being in the same room with her on a one on one basis. I can't say at the moment that we are super close and all that.. but it's something. Both my sisters are far away and all my Mom and Dad have home is my brother and me. I don't want to throw away the options to see my Mom. I can't promise we will ever be close and seeing each other weekly like she does my brother but it's something. I think I maybe happy with monthly or even bi monthly.

I am no where near talking to her about my daughter and for the moment I am okay with that. Don't know if that will ever change.

Mother's Day

The upcoming Mother's day holiday is making me a little down for a couple reasons.. I always dream and wish a little something from Izzy on Mother's day and I just get a text or facebook message. I am thrilled with that.. I hate to get nothing but even a card in the mail would be nice.

Alex lives about a 40 minute drive from me.. so not sure I will see him. If I do.. I would probably have to get him and bring him home and if we go out to eat pay for it myself. I don't really know if I would have the time to get him ect so that sort of stinks.

My husband has to work so there goes the cookout that I like to happen if it's nice.

I will have Stephen home after he goes to church with his Dad. So we have talked about Mother's day and he said he will take me to dinner but I have to pay. haha.. I teased him that he has to put me on his bike so he can "drive me"

He did suggest we ride our bikes to dinner.. We won't have the car. I normally don't like to go to dinner on Mother's day but I know we did it once at this Ilitian place.. so I am debating on going or not.. I kind of like the idea but paying for it is kind of a bummer.. but then again my son doesn't have a job. lol

How accepting are you

How accepting are you all to gay men and women? Transgender people? I ask because I been struggling with my Sunday's at church. I am a paid employee at a church. It's been a couple years at least. It's sort of like being self employed. I been allowed to bring my son with me.. I have been allowed to bring my grandchild with me.. My pets.. just kidding.

This church is very accepting and loving of the people I mentioned above. In general I don't have issues with gay people or transgender. I can be friendly.

A while back, a couple months ago, this man, who I didn't judge cause he was gay started be friendly with my son who was almost 14. He asked if my son could go to a Ice Hockey game with him and a couple other people. I agreed and my son spent the afternoon and evening with them.

My son had a great time. This man expressed interest in my son coming over to watch movies cause said my son asked him to take him to a movie. I agreed but then got to thinking how fishy that sounds.. this isn't a young guy wanting to be buddy buddy with an almost adult. This is someone about 40 years of age but really doesn't look it..

Well, anyways, I told my husband how I was concerned and he looked him up. He is a sex offender.. Strike one for the church. They knew nothing of this.. They have delt with it. He still goes to the church and has pretty much stopped talking to me for the most part.

Strike two.. is this big man that has finally decided to offically dress 100% as a woman. This is a person who has been rude to me when I was doing fundraising for my son. Recently, on the church facebook page.. i responded to a question of is because I don't want to hold a grudge over him being grouchy. So he has taken to speaking to be politly now that I have been friendly.. but not a lot and I am okay with it.

Two weeks ago, I went to the bathroom and he is in there going to the bathroom. I find that weird..I have changed bathrooms and go to the one that is meant for handicapped and it's only one stall and it locks.

Today, I didn't have any children and I stiked a conversation with a man after he asked me a question about having change for a 20. I said are you new to this church? He went on to have a long conversation about being a gay man and knowing some of the gay members.. he spoke about being bipolar and even multiple personatlies coming out. He spoke about some other weird stuff.. said how he doesn't consider himself religious but needs a place to socialize... to belong. He got disturbed by something that was preached about and it was pretty twisted.

I been going thru some pretty tough times.

My dog was attacked by a pit bull a month ago. He just got his stitches out on Friday and is doing well. I been parinoid to walk my dogs and even walking alone scares me. I been feeling overwhelmed on Sunday which is one of my days off. I work Saturday 3 to 10pm. I have to get my husband at 11 pm. We are not home until 11:30 pm.. probably sleeping by 12:30 am. I have to be up at 7:00 am to drive my husband.. I get home about 8:15 am.. I need to leave about 9:30 am to get to church by 10:00 am. I get annoyed on the Sundays I don't have any children come in. This happens quite often but not as much as it used to. I usually leave the church by noon and a lot of times I need to run errands to get groceries, soda and pet supplies. I know some of it I bring on myself.. like the pet stuff. I have to get my husband at 3pm and we come home and then he takes the car to work. I usually have to catch up on dishes and quite often pet stuff.

My husband says quit the church job. I am debating it. I enjoy it. But the other kind of day I would have if I quit was I would be home all day cause then my husband would probably drive himself.

I don't know if my frustation is coming more so from the kind of people the church attracts or that I am just getting tired. Last summer when my husband got the job.. I would drive him to work at 8 am, then run on the bike path, shower, stop at the gas station and munch on cereal while I waited for kids if any to come in.. Then I would drop paperwork off. I don't recall any major errands ect.. I believe I just came homw and was home for the day.. but I had the car so if I needed something I could go. My husband would take his bike and ride home at night.. now he has two jobs cause change of owners changed somethings up.. so just writing this reminds me that it's not really the same situation anymore.. once it gets warmer.. he will go back to riding his bike and that will free up picking him up at 3pm unless bad weather.

I enjoy watching the children when I do have them. One family just had a baby almost a year ago and another Mom is due this summer.. so finally I have babies to play with. for a while I didn't have any children. I get frustrated with how much effort I go thru to get there and then no kids.

For the record. I am not a member of the church. They do treat me well. I do join in with coffee hour once in a great while or if they have a special. It all depends more on if I have my son or not. Every since the situation with the man being a sex offender I have pulled away more and socialied there less. The moey isn't that big of a deal but it helps. sorry for the ranting.. would you leave this job considering the people it's attracting? For the record. I don't have a problem with gay people. There are others that I am aware of that haven't done anything to cause alarm. Today's guy didnt do anything but he did seem disturbed/.