tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66841988440951572102024-03-05T15:22:56.226-06:00birthmomtalksMajority of this blog is about adoption loss. I am also the Mom to a 21 year old son and a 16 year old son. I am fresh out of adoption related topics so I will use this blog to write just about whatever is going on in my life and may throw in adoption and reunion in here when the urge hits me. I recently went thru a bad divorce. I know it was quick but I found love and that has brought me much needed happiness. I may write about my relationship at times.birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.comBlogger1243125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-60199460448026656022024-03-05T14:37:00.000-06:002024-03-05T14:37:01.578-06:00Test post.birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-63916402205996907152020-09-17T15:22:00.000-05:002020-09-17T15:22:13.589-05:00Exciting newsIzzy and her husband have a passion for fostering children. They have been licenced for I believe a couple years now. That isnt the excited news though.
An opportunity fell into their laps to adopt a baby through a private adoption.
I was on pins and needles as they were awaiting the birth of the baby.
On my first wedding anniversary, the baby boy was born. Did I mention I got married? Had a beautiful wedding.
Back to Izzy, she has chose to have a open adoption with her son's first Mom.
As a birthmom from closed adoption era it makes my heart to see this happening. I don't know full details on what they agreed on or talked about.
Izzy has shared her journey to parenthood on social media and it really appears like she wants to educate the public on adoption.
I wont sugar coat it. The adoption caused some panic and fear in me. Its hard not to compare stories of my story and this one.. Also, the fact that while adoption does grow families that it first breaks one up.
Luckily, after the TPR was signed most of my anxiety and stress went away. I sm very happy for them.
birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-48724951487873858742020-09-15T16:09:00.002-05:002020-09-15T16:09:29.060-05:00New blogI miss blogging. I have blogged about adoption so much so I sort of feel lost the drive to write.
I do have little news on Izzy to share but gonna save that for another day.
I created a new blog about becoming a beachbody coach. Its something new for me. i dont expect it to replace my current job. However, i am excited to see where this journey takes me.
check out my new blog at www.beachbodycoachiintraining.blogspot.com
birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-57045932681125505642020-06-22T15:26:00.001-05:002020-06-22T15:26:13.844-05:00Update<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I haven't blogged in ages. Mostly I feel like I out grew it but also I don't have a working computer.. but feeling like I feel a little of the urge to write again.. if even just to update on my adventures.<br />
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</div>I am feeling nervous about the scrapbooking weekend cause my scrapbook is pretty personal to me. The weekend seems like it might be one of those sharing things where people get ideas off one another.. however, I don't know that to be true.<br />
I can be there from Saturday 9 am to Sunday 3pm.. I am debating if that is too long. I don't know if I will cut it short on the beginning or the end.. or not at all.. one thing that I am going to love is that it has a hot tub and a pool.. so that is pretty exciting to me. <br />
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The reason my scrapbook is personal to me is that it's been made with the plan to give it to my daughter.. So it tells part of a story that I just don't share often. <br />
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I am excited to go and looking forward to getting working on the book again. I am just so stuck with it. Most of the work that has been done has been done before I met my daughter..So before I met her it was a book to be given to an idea of a daughter. It was my therapy.. now it's to be given to a real live daughter. I am protective of my scrapbook.. I even question if I can ever really give it away to her. <br />
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I haven't even documented our reunion or any of our visits. It's hard to find the right words and not really any good layouts or fancy stickers for reunion of a Mother and daughter. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-73407751281782932112017-01-14T00:08:00.002-06:002017-01-14T00:08:54.351-06:00Scrapbooking weekend<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I pulled out my scrapbook today. See.. I have this great chance to go away for a weekend soon that is a scrapbooking weekend. I like retreats and such.. so this seems like a little bit of a retreat.. other women.. activities and meals that come with the package and I don't have to cook it or clean it..<br />
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Bad part is that I like to go but also don't like leaving home. I have to step out of my comfort zone and do new things.. It's a little fear of not going somewhere that others will know me.. don't want to be left out.<br />
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I didn't realize it's been about 4 years since I have really looked at the book or worked on it. I have been feeling blocked like writers block. I am hoping this weekend away will help give me the motivation to work on it again and someday give it to my daughter. <br />
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I sort of don't feel like I have a lot more to add.. it's not like in the beginning that I had lots of events to document ect.. but now it's caught up.. plus it doesn't help that I just haven't been as camera happy as I used to be.. then add that I tend to use my cell phone compared to my digital so it's a bit complicated for me to understand how to print pictures.<br />
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I sort of don't wanna go cause I don't wanna leave my dog. I just wanna soak her up.. I miss my dog Charlie a lot.. the only good thing to come out of having just Ann is that we really don't need to crate her.. however, often she goes in there on her own. <br />
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It's too late to back out of going to the weekend. Hopefully, I will have a good time and maybe even form new relationships.. <br />
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I think I am having a lot of anxiety over the why I created my scrap book.. so maybe I will blog about that later.. give me another reason to write cause that is something I have slowed down on too. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-91551764880379376652017-01-05T23:50:00.002-06:002017-01-05T23:50:28.119-06:00Charlie<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>About 7 years ago, a little dog entered my life. I found him on craiglist and had to have him.. see the lady that was selling him and bought him one day before she placed the ad. I felt bad. How could someone get a dog and not even give him a day before you decide he wasn't for you.<br />
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So, I brought him home and named him Charlie. <br />
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This picture above his how Charlie looked like with long hair. I just loved this look. He was a really sweet dog.. Very lovable. He loved to curl up in your neck and give kisses..<br />
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Our bond got stronger after one nearly fatal Saturday when a pit bull came out from under his fence and attacked him.. some neigbors helped seperate the dogs and after two surgeries and a month of running back and forth to the vet he recovered from this brutal attack.<br />
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This is what Charlie looked liked when he was groomed. <br />
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Charlie wasn't the perfect dog.. no matter what I did he would pee on the floor so for the last year or so I had to begin crating Charlie. This wasn't fun but either was stepping in pee as you walked thru the house during the night. Charlie adjusted ok.. he never liked the crate and never slept in.. 645 am meant time to wake me up by barking to go outside.<br />
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Charlie loved cats.. Bella was cool with Charlie grooming her for the most part.. <br />
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Bella above lost her battle with an virus that caused her to lose weight. She went from a 17 pound cat to about a 8 pound cat and wasn't well. We learned Charlie was ill the same week I was coming to term with Bella being too ill to go on..<br />
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The vet thought Charlie was going to die back in the early fall.. I thought I was going to lose two of my pals in one week.. I had to choose which animal to deal with first.. so I chose Bella.. She been sicker longer and I hadn't had time to really deal with the idea of losing Charlie.<br />
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Oh by the way, we have a cat that wasn't found of Charlie's love of cats.<br />
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But Charlie and my black lab got along really well.<br />
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They were the perfect pair.. was a few times that Ann got jealous and let him know who was boss but for the most part they did good together..<br />
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So like I mentioned the vet said Charlie was ill.. He most likely had a growth but without an xray we couldn't be certain.. an xray wouldn't change anything so I didn't get one.. the vet gave him an vitamin injection and it got rid of the fluid.. he continued to get the injection and then got pill forms of it.. he stumped the vet.. he was shocked he was still alive after the first injection.. <br />
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Charlie took his medication really well. I would hide it in peanut butter.. he knew what time it was and would remind me it was time for it.. <br />
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The good outcome of this medication was short lived.. on new years day, he slowed down and was laying around but I didn't pay it much attention. it's cold out.. we all our slower.. when he didn't eat and refused his medication I was worried.. I went from worried to scared for his life in a matter of a couple hours..<br />
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Poor Charlie was having a rough time.. He was up and down.. plopping down doing the dead dog look.. I was out of my mind scared.. called the emergency vet.. damn places cost way too much. I couldn't bring him unless I thought he was in serious pain. I was by myself cause my boyfriend was working.. <br />
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He called my sister to come sit with me.. We stayed at Charlie's side trying to be there for him.. I got him to lay on the couch with me for a little while..<br />
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I didn't sleep all night.. As soon as the vet opened we were there waiting.. Charlie didn't enjoy the car ride. He wasn't his happy self.<br />
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Charlie's vet was able to see him and seemed sad to see his happy patient struggling.. There was nothing that could be done to save him or make him feel better. I had to make the choice to put him to sleep or bring him home to die.. I would have loved one more kiss.. one more snuggle.. one more happy dance as we fed him but Charlie was struggling and not having a good time.. the vet said the up and down was him struggling to breath.<br />
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I am still in a bit of shock how Charlie went from a happy go lucky kiss giving peanut butter begging to at death's door.. but he did.. My Charlie died early Jan 2nd.I made the unselfish decision to put him to sleep. My heart is still hurting.. I still catch myself holding the door for him after Ann comes in from the outside.. i still at times think I hear him bark.. I still think about feeding the dogs.. now it's just Ann and Lucy that cat who doesn't like dogs.. oh yea Filbert the turtle.<br />
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I find myself thinking if I could just have one more kiss or one more hug or even one more playful fight that Charlie and I used to do that I would feel better.. but probably would still want one more. I believe Charlie was about 9 or 10 years of age. I sure do miss him. <br />
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I will forever be grateful for the years we had together after the attack by the pit bull and even for the few months that lead up to his death.. even though I knew Charlie was most likely ill.. those last few months were happy months for him.. with treatment he started eating again, running with jumping on the couch to snuggle and kiss.. He was enjoying life again. I will treasure those moments.. Rest in peace Charlie. Your were a good boy.. forever in my heart. Say hello to Bella for me. <br />
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This last picture was after a month after the first injection when the vet was stumped he was still alive.. Miss you lots little guy.. Ann does too. <br />
birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-17462540400786026952016-12-24T23:16:00.001-06:002016-12-24T23:16:29.033-06:00Merry Christmas and letting go<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>It's Christmas eve already! This year went by fast. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas! Hope all your wishes and dreams come true tomorrow and the days going forward. <br />
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I don't believe I have posted about Alex. He just recently turned 22 years of age. He doesn't get to see his baby much.. I need to get working on that with him with the courts. However, he seems to have found the right girl. They seem to be happy and she has a 7 year old daughter who I think is adorable.<br />
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Here comes the letting go part. I collected dolls and paid quite a bit of money to get them. I have just kind of out grew it and haven't been keeping them displayed or even cleaned up.. They just been stored in the closet. I decided I would pull all the dolls out and choose one to give as a Christmas gift to my son's girlfriend's daughter. It wasn't easy to commit to doing that. I almost backed out cause even though I haven't been displaying or paying them much attention they once had been an important part of my life. I have seem to outgrow the need for baby dolls. <br />
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I remember when I was collecting them I was in a very bad spot in my life when it came to adoption. I believe I used the dolls as a band aid to cover up my hurt. I bought the dolls on layaway and always looked forward to the day I would pay off a new doll and bring it home. I like to go shopping for clothes for the dolls.. change their clothes.. but litle but little I don't get the same excitement for them.<br />
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I choose to give her this doll. <br />
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She cleaned up really well. My regret is that I don't have the original dress anymore but this one will do. I think I choose this doll because I feel less attached to it.. All the rest of my dolls besides a bald baby and this red head doll have dark hair and I believe more baby like.. so the struggle to choose this doll was easier compared to the rest.<br />
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Someday, I may choose to pass on the rest of my dolls or maybe I might find a spot for them and keep them.. but for now I feel it's best that someone else enjoy this pretty doll. <br />
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birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-35026880403970391752016-12-22T23:45:00.000-06:002016-12-22T23:45:37.828-06:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>Izzy received my Christmas gifts I sent her and thanked me on facebook and mentioned how I would be getting something from her.. I got it tonight.. We both sent each other smelly lotion and perfumes ect.. It doesn't surprise me that we do that kind of stuff. <br />
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Just think of the shipping costs we could save if we just both agree to "buy our own stuff" haha.. I would never suggest that.. It feels good to have this fun exchange of gifts between us.<br />
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I do wonder is the lack of gifts part of the reason she has been distant? I can't answer for her but I know the lack of the acknowledged gift had bothered me and made me less likely to give gifts and the lack of in person visits.. who wants to pay shipping if they are in town..<br />
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I really hope our relationship doesn't come down to lotions and stuff. I love her even if I don't get or give gifts. <br />
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I have yet to give Izzy her scrapbook.. I haven't worked on it in a long time. I just haven't been in the mood.. but I see there is a expo coming up soon for scrapbooking.. It's a weekend getaway. They have different packages to choose from.. I so badly want to go but going away always make me nervous plus I have to pay for it up front.. I wish I had more time to think about it and decide.<br />
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I would be doing the option that gives me one full day, over night and until the next afternoon.. It includes a few meals. I would love to get out there and meet new people and maybe get some motivation to finish the scrapbook and be ready to give it to her. <br />
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Has anyone done anything like this before? The deal is 160.00 which isn't bad for over night and a few meals. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-79431776077061557512016-12-08T23:41:00.001-06:002016-12-08T23:41:35.907-06:00Christmas<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>It's hard to believe it's almost Christmas time already. We had a mild start to winter and just now a few days ago got some snow and cold weather has finally set in. I wish I could set my house down somewhere warmer. <br />
I have chose to make it important to send Izzy a Christmas gift. It's been a few years since I have done Christmas or birthday gifts.. It's partly due to me not getting a response from Christmas gift in the past and me not being able to see her on her birthday even though she is around.<br />
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I really don't know if lack of gifts is part of the reason she has been distant.. I am not sending a gift to buy her love and I know I am accepting a chance of being hurt but I just want her to know I am thinking of her. I am guilty of not saving her address so I will try to put it somewhere safe and hopefully start sending things more often.. not gifts or anything but just cards ect.. take her as she comes. I know that is easier said than done. I didn't get much. I got her a Avon set of body powder, perfume and lotion. The truth is I bought it before I knew if she would respond with her address so hell might as well buy something I would like.. so happy to report I am not keeping the gift. I doubt if I will send anything else but who knows.<br />
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I am in the market for a new car. My car is still running but the body is rusting out bad and it needs repairs and I have had two mechanics that suggest not fixing the car due to the body.. <br />
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So.... I have my heart set on a jeep or a suv.. I love the Jeep Cherokee and I like the Ford Explorer or ford Escapes.. I kind of like the sportier SUVS but not sure if they will be too small.. I am being pretty picky.. I want it to be Blue and heated leather seats. I hope it's new enough I can put my phone in the dash thing.. I hope to get something after the new year. <br />
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Anyone have any SUV models to suggest?<br />
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Tomorrow, my work is having a Christmas open house. We have new owners so no big Christmas party. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-75932623618127666392016-11-26T23:08:00.003-06:002016-11-26T23:08:57.842-06:00Quick update<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I haven't wrote in quite sometime. I don't have much to really say these days.. so just a quick update on me. <br />
I started my league on darts using regular darts. It's fun and I am making a little improvement but it's not as the same as my blow gun. Our team seems to do a good job getting more games than the rest. I like having at least one night to get out to mingle with others that doesn't involve sitting down to eat.<br />
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I recently hit my ten year mark on my job. It's been a challenging year for both of my clients. One more so than the other.. So I have had to brush up on some skills that I haven't been using at all. My boss is retiring and has sold the business. This should be interesting.. They actually close on the deal on Monday.<br />
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My dog Charlie most likely has a growth of cancer but not sure unless I do an xray. I may do one cause I really like to know what's going on. He gets all bloated with fluid and a vitamin injection makes it go away. I am happy he is still around. Trying to make the best of it knowing he is ill. The vet didn't expect him to live when he seen him the first time a few months ago.<br />
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I still workout. I do a combination of going to the YMCA and working out at home. <br />
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My kids are getting old. Izzy is 24 years old and married. Alex just turned 22 years of age. He has a girlfriend who has a 7 year old daughter. She is sweet.. Stephen is 16 years old and a junior in high school. Hard to believe next year is the last year. <br />
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My turtle has gotten big. He has a 75 gallon tank now. He has finally given me the wish of letting gold fish live with him. He has two of them that been in the tank for about 6 months. <br />
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I still babysit at church.. some days I want to quit but I love the children. I want to quit cause I just want to cuddle and play with the kids. They want it to be bible class. I am just not cut out to teach children and no one listens that the lessons are not really appealing to my age group. <br />
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Well, that's about it.. nothing too exciting. Life is treating me pretty good. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-36307262224963218002016-10-09T21:32:00.000-05:002016-10-09T21:32:27.705-05:00Blow and throw league!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>My blow and throw league finished up tonight!! I learned last week at the beginning of the night we were in first place by one game!! Talk about pressure to do well.. I could literally cost my dart partner money if I can't do my thing... we fought for as many games as possible and we still had first place by one game..<br />
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So tonight... we played out final league night and we are not playing the people that are in second by one game but they are next to me so I am watching their games towards the end.. it was such a close call. I left before they were finished but it was looking like it could be a tie..<br />
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But!~!!! we won first place!!! I was so excited when I learned this.. I love the game. I love fighting for the win!! I love winning!!! It never dawned on me that we would pull first place. Our team name is just for fun! Well, maybe just doing it for fun is what it takes sometimes to come out of top. It was a handicapped league which gives it more of a fair fight. Most times the other teams got the handicapped against me.<br />
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Next week we have our banquet and then after that I will be on a 4 man league using hand darts. I am not as thrilled about hand darts compared to my blow gun. <br />
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Overall, I love getting out there and socializing with other people on a regular basis. Don't get me wrong. I have my friends but this is a fun way to spend the evening once a week.birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-10212954358781926622016-09-13T20:53:00.001-05:002016-09-13T20:53:27.882-05:00Half marathon<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I ran my half marathon on 9/3. It took me 2 hours and 57 minutes. I cut off about 7 minutes from last years half marathon time. I was a bit slower than I would have been had a not lost about 10 days of running due to a short illness that wasn't in my control.<br />
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It's frustrating to train so well all summer long and have to deal with that. It has sort of turned me off the idea of running for races.. I put a lot of pressure on myself to run the race no matter what.. and I mean run.. no walking. <br />
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I am not saying don't run just not sure I want to set out to make my end goal a half marathon.. However, I did look up the training guide to a full marathon.. I would love to say I ran a full marathon!! but training for a full marathon is just not ideal with a full time job.. well, that's what I tell myself.<br />
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Right now I will be aiming to get back to my fitness classes and work on the weights in the weight room.. the weight room is a place that I am not quite comfortable but I need to build some strength so I will be stronger. <br />
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Has anyone that is reading ever run a full marathon? <br />
birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-8523974340182747752016-08-11T23:07:00.000-05:002016-08-11T23:07:49.326-05:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>This week I have been lazy. I haven't ran since Friday. Going over 25 miles in 6 days just drained me and I don't think I will ever repeat that again. I can see running three days a week but four is way too much. I been doing too much sleeping in and not enough getting my workouts done in the morning when it's most likely to happen.<br />
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My friend who agreed to run the half marathon backed out on me cause not enough time to run. I was bummed and my first thought was to quit cause I feel overwhemled to get my running in.. but I don't quit. I just can't do it. <br />
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So, I will run tomorrow.. then Monday before I shop for my son for school... then after that I will wake up with my son and more likely to get out the door for my workouts. I will be missing a couple hours of sleep but I guess I can trade that in for a fitter happier me. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-1007263647744919862016-08-06T00:55:00.000-05:002016-08-06T00:55:43.219-05:00running<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>This week I bumped my running up quite a bit. I believe I set a new record for myself. In a 6 day period, between 4 runs I have ran 25 miles this week. I do best with fitness when I have a plan in mind on what I do on each day. Now that I have a planet fitness membership along with my ymca membership I need to fit in weight training so I added a 4th running day just for this week to start the new plan. <br />
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I will basically be once a week doing a long run where I increase my distance. I no longer will think of my runs in miles but in how much time I can run and divide that time in half and turn around at that point. I figure the miles will naturally come on. <br />
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I will also be doing two other runs. One will be before work so it will be limited on how far I can go.. the other run will probably be longer than the short run but not as long as the longer run. It will all depend on how I am feeling and what I have going on for the day. <br />
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I am getting excited for my half marathon. I do wish I had a little more time to build on long runs and feel like I am good at them... right now I am pretty good with anything leading up to 8 miles.. more than that and it's a challenge. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-70374113292441161132016-07-30T23:01:00.002-05:002016-07-30T23:01:22.724-05:00Half Marathon training<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>My half marathon has been moved up a bit. It turns out the biggest loser run will not happen this summer so my friend and I are signing up for another half marathon early September.. For a few minutes I was feeling like I would possibly run two half marathons this summer but that's not going to happen.<br />
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I am doing pretty well with running. My biggest hurdle is probably just finding the time and staying motivated to get it done on work mornings. I figure once school starts it will be more likely to get those runs in cause I will have to get up. <br />
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I am probably averaging two runs a week. I will like to see that be at least three miles. I can run 6 miles no sweat.. well, not really no sweat. I am pretty soaked in sweat. I can go about 8 miles too if time allows.. It's past 8 miles where I really need to get out there and get more longer runs under my belt this summer.<br />
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I ordered a couple head bands and can't wait to get them. The sweat is burning my eyes something terribly. I hope to get to the eye doctor so I can get some contacts too. Running with glasses can be a bit of a pain. <br />
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birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-36278879909054673742016-07-09T11:10:00.002-05:002016-07-09T11:10:45.855-05:008 mile trail run<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>On the 4th of July, I ran a 8 mile trail run. It was about an hour drive for me. It's a whole new world out there waiting for me with me having the GPS and some confidence in myself not to get lost. If only I had a better car, more money and more time to travel.. awww.. what wishes.<br />
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I had ran this trail run once before. It was two years ago. I went with a friend but she was faster than me so I ran it by myself. <br />
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I was pretty good with my training. I had a few long runs in and many short ones too. I just once again failed to get some training in with the crazy hills.<br />
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It's a beautiful setting. <br />
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Felt great to get to mile 7. The finish line isn't too far off.. one more mile.. just one more mile.<br />
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The hills are the worst. They make me feel like I am going to throw up. It's almost physically impossible for me to run them but I ran up the majority of them. <br />
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I miss the idea of running with friends and having people cheering me on. I only have one friend that I have ran with and she does another run on the 4th of July. We are planning on running a half marathon together soon. We just don't know the date yet. It's the biggest loser run. I am looking forward to making that goal again. <br />
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birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-91516414606855046862016-07-02T23:25:00.000-05:002016-07-02T23:25:32.650-05:00Summer update<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>Running: I been running on average twice to three times a week. My max is 8.5 miles! I love running. My only regret is that I live where it's cold and I can't find comfort in winter running. It's horrible.. For the first time in my life..at times I am ready to walk away from this town.. if only life was so simple to pick up somewhere warm.<br />
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On the 4th of July, I am running my 8 mile trail run. I haven't ran this week because it's the time during the month where I am miserable. I am so lucky with my timing. Haha.. I don't know if I will have any one there to watch me finish the race. That's kind of depressing. However, I said I would run and I don't back out unless I feel like it's a serious medical reason to do so. I only backed out of one run and that was last summer when I was still dealing with dizzy spells after learning I am anemic. As far as I know my iron levels are ok. I get tested again in August.<br />
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I don't know when my half marathon is yet cause it hasn't been posted. I am so eager to get a date so I know how much longer I have to get the length of my runs up. <br />
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Darts: I am almost done with my 9 week dart league. It was called a remote league. So it was quite different from what I did years ago. The people we were shooting agaisnt were not in the same bar or even in the same city. We are coming in last place. But we did better than my partner expected. I have one more league left.<br />
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Sunday, I start my blow and throw league. I am really excited for it. It's been so long since I shot with my blow gun. It's going to be a normal league meaning the room with be full of like mind excited people fighting for the win. I was told the team I shoot against tomorrow is probably the best of everyone. What a way to get started. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-8779083385995441372016-06-11T01:03:00.002-05:002016-06-11T01:03:33.843-05:00Birch box & Girly girl post<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I have never been a real girly girl. It's not due to not wanting to be one but it was more a combination of not knowing how to do the girly type of stuff and the cost that it takes to be buying all the stuff a high maintenance woman might need to acquire the look of a girly girl.<br />
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For quite sometime I been enjoying subscribing to birch box. Once a month, they charge me 10.00 for a box of samples. It can be a combo of make up, hair care products and skin products. It's sort of fun opening up the box and seeing what they sent. My only complaint is that they do send a email asking if you wanna peek or not of the products you are about to receive. I can't help but to peek. <br />
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It comes in a cute decorative box that is different each month. They come in handy for wrapping Christmas gifts.<br />
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For the record, most of the finger nail products you see didn't come from birch box but one did. I just haven't gotten around to trying it out. <br />
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I been trying to paint my nails more. I bought a dryer and it makes it easier so my nails don't smudge before they dry.. but they still chip within about 2 or 3 days. Does anyone have any suggestions on a polish or a technique that will get me more time. I would be happy with 5 days. <br />
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I worked tonight until 11 pm and I get home and open up my box. They send 5 products and even though it's late not only do I open the box but I go thru all my other boxes and play around with make up. <br />
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One of the items I got tonight was to make your eye brows thicker? Is that a cool thing or not? I pay to get my waxed! Confession time. I mostly only do that because I have dark hair and grow hair on my upper lip and it makes me feel very uneasy.. So I go in and ask for my eye brows and whisper in a quieter voice to do my lip too. <br />
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I also used an eye liner from another box and lip gloss. It's after midnight and I am playing with make up. There is some of the stuff that I just don't use after trying it or not at all even. I recently gave some of it away as a gift at a retreat and it went over well. I know I can go on birch box website and rate the items. I probably should do that then cause I think they will get to know what you like or don't like. <br />
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I have yet to get anything that I just had to go order the product. but it is fun to play with. I hear there is similar companies out there. Anyone know of them and if they are any good.birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-6009078184495547602016-06-04T12:00:00.000-05:002016-06-04T12:00:27.530-05:00my grandbaby<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>It's been good getting to see my grand daughter again. I probably will see her almost weekly. My son needs rides to see her and I will do my best to support him in getting there. She is a doll.. So cute. I just love her so much. She looks so much like my son. It got tossed in my lap to throw her a first birthday party. So, I got to try to keep it a little lower key than the baby shower. Since, she is a summer baby we can do a party outside. <br />
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Here is a few pictures from the last couple weeks.<br />
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</div>I just love summer. I love getting out of the house into the fresh air and sunshine. Today, my son and I took the bikes on my bike rack and took them for a ride. It's the funniest things that make me think of my ex husband. It was so hard to get my bike on the rack. I don't have a clue how it's done and I guess my son doesn't know either. It's the girl bike that makes it a challenge. We did get them up there but right when we got home my son's bike fell off. This isn't an admit of missing him but is a admit on how sometimes it's only human I guess not to appreciate all the little things a husband or wife does for us on a daily basis. I actually don't recall my bike going on the rack that often. Mostly, I would run and my son and husband would ride along side me. <br />
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We went about 7 miles. I think what I love best about being outdoors is the hot son beating down on me. I love the warmth. I love being a little sweaty. It's just so calming and peaceful outdoors. <br />
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I am still training for my runs. I have the trail run in a about a month. The half marathon date has been changed cause now it turns out the Biggest Loser Run is coming to my town and my friend wants to run it in town. I am actually bugged by this decision. <br />
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I was really looking forward to going to Chicago to run it. I thought it would be a fun experience to hang out with my running buddy. Plus we don't even know the date of the run here in town. I love the August date.. I know it's still going to be warm. I just not into cooler weather and running. I don't want the run to be too sooon.. so hoping it's not too far past the August run.birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-79309651369286942692016-05-31T21:33:00.000-05:002016-05-31T21:33:06.832-05:00darts<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I am in my 4th week of darts. We suck pretty bad. Tonight, we only won one game. However, my average is going up. It's just that we play against really good people. My dart partner told me that they guy that is going to be my partner for my blow and throw league knows me from the game room days and remembers my nick name bunnyluv.. It's so funny.. Guess I had forgotten all about that. <br />
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I do enjoy shooting darts again. It's fun to get out and have the competition. <br />
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Sorry I haven't posted any pictures of my grand baby. I promise I will try to do it soon. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-49899695401210967722016-05-26T23:16:00.001-05:002016-05-26T23:16:30.961-05:00Visit with my grand baby<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I did get to see my grandbaby on Sunday. She is 8 months old now but going on 16 years of age. Her Mom says she is pretty independent and doesn't want to be carried all day.<br />
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She is a Momma's girl that is for sure. We visited for an hour and half. It was pretty cool. It was so nice to see and hold my sweet grand daughter. <br />
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I will post pictures over the weekend when I have more time. I am supposed to go again on Sunday. Ideally, I would like to go twice a month but it's possible it will be more to help my son get there to see her. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-14953294912553999452016-05-22T15:15:00.001-05:002016-05-22T15:15:26.054-05:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I am so excited!!! I am actually gonna see my grandbaby!!! I hope this is one of many visits and things get better with the family. I wish my grand baby wasn't from a broken family especially right from the start but what can I say?? I will try to post pictures later. birthmothertalkshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6684198844095157210.post-61801345973637275722016-05-21T01:03:00.001-05:002016-05-21T01:03:09.586-05:00Marathon training<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><br />
</div>I have started my training for my 8 mile trail run and 1/2 marathon. I don't run in the winter so this is usually the time I get started. <br />
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When I set out on a run I don't always have a plan on how far I will run. It all depends on my time available to run and just how I am feeling. I ended up running 7 miles today. It's only the second time this season that I have ran. The first time was 4 miles.<br />
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I am pretty impressed that I was able to make it the 7 miles. One more mile and I will be where I need to be at for the trail run. <br />
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I know running can be rough on my joints and my body.. but I just love it so much. I love running outdoors. I am an oddball. I love the sun beating down on me. I love being around other runners and noticing them. I feel if they can do it. I can do it. I just love taking in the view. Today, I seen a lady riding her bike with a dog in the basket. <br />
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Where I run quite a bit of my view is the river. It doesn't get much better than that. <br />
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On Sunday, I will run with my girlfriend Leah. We will do the half marathon together. I am looking forward to it.<br />
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