2009 is gone and 2010 begins. Wow!!! is what I have to say about it. I was looking back at some old postings of mine and was shocked at how long they were. Did any of you really read them? Ha! I am amazed at the turn around my life has taken. Somethings I will choose to leave private, but others I can share.
My husband and I relationship has much improved. I went from wanting out to never wanting to part. I am just crazy about him. I love him more today than I did when we married. I have made a decision to not throw around the divorce word. Divorce isn't an option for us. My husband has remained sober for over six months now. I hope he don't mind me bragging. He isn't super weird on me and doesn't seem bothered that I like to have a drink once in a great while. But then again, I drink the kool-aid crap and he never did. My children seem much happier too.
I no longer do live in care. The husband is dead and the wife is rotting away in the nursing home. But she is in one of the nicer ones though. I was invited and paid to attend the funeral and sit with the family. I am still working as a caregiver, but it's really been testing my patience, but I can't see myself not doing it.
I spent quite a few hours in counseling between Pastor K and his wife or just his wife and the adoption agency counslor. Did it help? I think it helped as a source of a outlet and also for someone to reassure me that all would be okay.
I am going to be a Grandma this year. I had fun telling my family that, because my oldest son is only 15 years old. but it's not my son.. it's my husband's daughter.. which makes her my step daughter so that makes me grandma. Which means maybe I can babysit and buy dresses and baby dolls for her.
This year, I have become a little more open in talking to people about my daughter. It's still not a really easy subject for me. Well, I better get my doggy in from the cold and get some sleep. Happy new year!!!