Moving along

My plans for the birthmom's retreat is moving along really well. I went thru 3 really bad days of stressing about it. I get so worked up when it comes to travling and money so when you add what could be an emotionally triggering event.. It's not really pretty. My poor husband had to put up with me. I fell off my diet and ate like crap. I have been back on track for about 3 to 4 days and I have decided not to weigh myself for a whole week to get myself on the right track.

As of right now.. I have the car rental done. I have the room reserved for my husband and myself. We are sharing of course. This isn't typical of a retreat cause years past for retreats for mom's with special needs children.. I have my own room or I share with a friend.. but this retreat is much different. So sharing with another birthmom isn't an option cause 1. I don't know anyone. 2. That would cost me more money cause I would still have to pay for my husband's and then my share of the shared room. There is a facebook group that was devoted to the retreat but it doesn't see much action yet.

Our biggest hurdle was child care and pet care. My husband's son is going to stay at our house while we are gone to watch out for my son and the pets. We will get my son used to the pet routine so everything goes smoothly. I feel good about this arrangement. This saves us from boarding the pets and my son can stay in his own room.. Except for Saturday and Sunday night.. my step son has to work.

The easist hurdle to fix was that my husband's boss agreeed to hire my step son and he will take my husband's hours while we are away. We will need child care from Saturday evening to Sunday late and my ex mother n law has agreed to help out.

My time off request just got sent in so hopefully within a week or two I will know they approved it off. We plan on leaving on a Thursday and get back on Monday but I took an extra day to unwind with my family.

I have the money but I haven't officially found a way to put it away out of sight so we won't spend it or risk that it would come up missing.. highly unlikly it would come up missing but probably not a good idea to leave a good chunk of money around.

The last thing that I have to get worked out and not sure if it's something I can work out is that this event could be triggering for me. I have never really openly talked about adoption loss face to face with other birthmom's and that experience has to be a huge thing.

One thing I haven't mentioned yet is that this trip is in North Carolina and that is where Izzy lives. My husband said where the retreat is being held is about 3 hour drive away from Izzy. I haven't even took time to think about if I will try to arrange meeting up with her. It would seem really sad to get within 3 hours of her and not see her but then again.. it seems like any visit is a struggle to arrange so not sure I want to throw rejection on my weekend.

I have posted about the retreat on facebook and knowing me.. I will continue to so not sure if I should just leave it up to Izzy to see if we can meet up. What are your thoughts on it?